Heres a picture of Pat, Me, & April my two bestfriends and of me when i was 3 months along..I'll upload more recent ones soon!
Its crazy to think that im already half way done with my pregnancy..Time is going by fast. I wish i could say its been an easy pregnancy but its been really tough..filled with my hard times and i'm sure there is more to follow but i'm staying strong and pulling through..
I found out October 19th 2009 that i was pregnant i was on my way to my best friends house when she and i were on the phone and i told her that i was going to pick up a pregnancy test so i got one at pick n save and freaked out the whole way to her house. I got there and i took it right away, oh and by the way it doesn't take 2 minutes to get a result on those pee sticks more like 10 seconds. Anyways i took one and could not believe my eyes, i looked at April and said wheres the other one quick i need it. I took the 2nd and well suprise it was still positive! I decided i needed to take one more so i drove to the store with april to get another one and that one was positive to.. On our way back to aprils i couldn't say much except what is my parents and boyfriend going to think. Once i got to Aprils house i told her mom and asked for advice, i called my boyfriend to tell him and well he didn't take it very well i drove to his house to talk but he didn't say anything. After all that excitement i still had to drive all the way to bayshore for a work orientation ha my mind was not there. I went home that night not knowing what to do the next day i went to the hospital since i was not feeling good, April and her boyfriend Pat came with for support, and a few hours later the doctor said YUP your pregnant at that moment my heart was filled with alot of different emotions but all i could think was what is my parents and boyfriend gunna say. After the doctor did an ultra sound and other tests i was free to go. I went home and the next morning i told my Mom, i think that was probably the hardest thing i ever had to tell her, next came my dad and that was not easy my parents didn't handle it well at the start but as time past we are all doing better, next came brothers and sisters the day they found out was very emotional cuz i knew i let them down and was not a good example to them all. soon after family and relatives found out friends found out and it started with people having alot of questions for me as time went on it got easier and now i have family and friends supporting me we still have our moments but we are working on it. You might wondering where the boyfriend/daddy was in all of this well he was dealing with it on his own he was there for me at the start even though he was very angry towards me but as time went on he drifted further and further away theres not much to say about him at the start i thought things would work out but now i'm 20 weeks along and i barely see him, hear from him, he's so undecided about everything that i don't know what to think..All i can do is pray that he pulls through but as i sit here and wait its killing me slowly inside i may have a boyfriend but it doesn't feel like it at all i'm doing everything on my own and someone who i wish was there for me is not. I hear from him a couple times a week and never see him he says he cares but doesnt know how to show it and to be honest i'm getting sick of waiting here and it kills me to know that this child may have to grow up without a father. he and i did talk about adoption, but the more we talked and the more i looked into the harder it got to even think that was an option i prayed about it alot and finally i decided I'm keeping this baby, my boyfriend(brock) did not like that answer and still doesn't so right now thats put a road block in our relationship..So i guess you can say the father and I are not doing well at all and it keeps getting worse everyday let me tell you if your single and raising a kid on your own kudos cuz i know it takes alot of work, streangth and courage. Its hard and i wish i had the dad helping me but i guess i just gotta realize that he is not there and i'm on my own.
Now enough about the stupid drama that i have to deal with cuz its dumb and that wasn't even the half of it but now its time to tell you about the little baby!
I'm almost 20 weeks along and the baby is highly active movin alot and growing everyday. I find out in just 2 days wether its a boy or girl! I have had some health issues during this pregnancy kidney stone, bedrest, cramping, and a problem with my placenta so its been hard but i'm pulling through hopefully in the end the baby and i are strong and healthy i'll upload some pics of the ultra sounds soon..
So i guess you can say the first few months were filled with alot of different emotions and opsticles but i'm pulling through with the help of friends and family ill make it through this
and it will be okay!
I'll update soon...but thats a very short summary of the first few months if you wanna know more just let me know..
Lots of love ~Hannah + Baby
