Hey Everyone,
Sorry that it has been so long since i have blogged. My life has been pretty crazzzyy the last few weeks and i haven't had the time to sit down and blog about it!
I don't even know where to start i think the last time i blogged was when Brock told his family. So i guess i'll just start from there!
Anyways, after Brock told his family and everything was put out in the open about the pregnancy everything took a 180 we have been doing great! Its crazy to think that just a few weeks ago Brock and i were doing horrible and i was loosing hope..But, now things are going great! His family knows and i have been able to hang out with him more i met a bunch of his friends, went to church with him, bible study, and he came with me to spend mothers day with my family we have done so much in the last few weeks besides all the fun stuff like registering at stores, hanging with friends, spending time together and just finally being excited about the baby we have had alot of other stressful things going on. We need to find a place to stay ASAP because when june comes around the house i'm living at needs rent money but the cost to live here is way to much! So we spent hours beyond hours searching and searching for places to live and always seem to hit a dead end.. Right now we can't afford much due to the fact i was not able to work during the pregnancy. Also now that Brock is so excited about his son being born he doesn't want to be away from him so the urgency to find a place together is higher also!So if you know of somewhere cheap let me know ASAP!
Its so weird to have Brock excited about baby boy being born i mean it feels so good to have him excited its just different like i can be completely excited for once ya know? Brock has felt the baby kick punch move, gone to appointments with me, gotten stuff ready for our son being born and is all around extremely excited! PRAISE GOD!!!
For the past week i was staying at Brock's house with his family babysitting since his sister and brother-in law were gone it was nice to spend time with Brock but what sucked is he was extremely sick during the whole time so not only was a taking care of 2-3 kids all day i was taking care of Brock i guess you could say i got a glimpse of the future! As much as it was tiring and stressful i enjoyed it! Now that Brock and i are getting along perfectly everything seems to be all better even amongst the hardships we are still facing about $money and emotional stuff i have a whole new look on it all. We still have a ton to figure out before the little one gets here like a place to live, jobs, child care, schooling for Brock & I. Oh and a baby name! LOL.
Brock has just recently found out that he may not be able to finish school due to some financial aid stuff and might have to take a break from school to be honest that is the last thing i want him to do. If he does that i will completely feel like it was my fault so please pray we figure everything out so that we can get him to finish College.
How am i doing emotionally? Well most days i'm doing good even with all the stress, but some days i sit back and still think that i ruined Brock's life there are so many things he has to do differently and change that it kills me to watch and i know he keeps saying its fine and that he is happy we decided to keep the baby and is sorry for treating me so bad and for not being there for me sooner and that everything will work out, but the days i watch him give things up i feel horrible! I guess it all comes with the territory and hopefully once the baby comes all will be good!
Health wise i am doing okay still fighting a bit of a cold and have some bad Braxton hicks! OH and i just found stretch marks OMG!!!! Other than that i'm doing good..
Baby boy is healthy and kicking alot and by the way the other day he did not kick all day until he heard his daddy's voice on the phone how cute!
Sorry that this blog was just all over the place and alot of info but for the most part that sums it up! If you wanna know more or wanna hear alot of the funny stories i have to share about the last few weeks just call me, text me, throw me a message and i'll tell ya!
Next in line of things to do..
Apartment searching.
Baby shopping.
Baby showers!
Oh and i turn 21 next week!!!!
~Hannah + Baby
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